It's always in me, How to get rid of it ?

Being me is a scary thing.
The things i want always so hard to reach.
It's always in me.
Scare of it.

Want him.
Being an almost impossible thing.
It's always in me.
Scare of it.

Procrastinate.
always delay things undone.
It's always in me.
Scare of it.

I always seem to favor someone so easily.
Have no idea why it always happen to me.
It's always in me.
Scare of it.

 Seriously i have no idea why this always happen to me. Whenever a person treat me slightly nicer, then i will start it again. . Start to think differently again. It seems that i always think people treat me nicer then it sure indicate something. Maybe they like me then only they treat me nicer. Then i already register that they like me in me.. Then of coz i will start noticing them and then only found myself being a stalker. My gosh.
I really don't like this.. How am i going to get rid of this feeling?? Can someone help me??

Am i lack of love?? Help if you know how..