Land above my feet

It is unfamiliar of me..
For me to take things so slowly.
For me to not judge.
For me to live just this way.



It is pretty hard for me to continue.
I need to stand up and plan.
I need to stand up and decide.
I need to clear my mind.

Things gets pretty ugly when i don't plan.
But its not necessary that ugly.
Still, I need a plan.
I either stay or leave.

Where will I be if i leave?!
Who I wanna go to?!
How to go?
Where to search?

I need to answer all these by myself.